It’s been a week. We had Hurricane Milton roll on through the west coast of Florida and through the state, on the heels of Hurricane Helene.
Yesterday, while chatting with a neighbor, she was joking at the irony of me being married to a first responder whose nature is to be prepared and take emergencies seriously, and yet, I’m the least worried person when it comes to hurricanes. I don’t put shutters up, don’t evacuate, don’t hoard non perishables or fill up gas cans. Heck, our generator isn’t even usable in our place. If the power goes out, I’m OK with no electricity. Typically the weather is gorgeous after a hurricane! Today is BEAUTIFUL!
When a friend texted me there was a tornado in my neighborhood and I should get into a bathroom immediately, I didn’t panic. I just stopped, listened, moved a lantern, charger, and water bottle into the bathroom, looked outside for swirls, and went about my business shutting down breakers. Never set foot in that bathroom. (That tornado was definitely too close for comfort though.)
Maybe I’m just incredibly stupid.
Part of it is experience I guess. Where we live is as safe as can be, there will be gas available and food available eventually, and while things could be uncomfortable for a brief time, it’s not the end of the world. (Note: this is not to undermine what happened in NC btw. There is NOTHING that could’ve prepared the wonderful people of that state for what happened. Nothing. My heart is absolutely broken for a place I would love to call home.)
Trust me, I have anxiety about a lot of things. A lot. Emphasis on “a lot.” I work my ass off in my business. You don’t want to have me as your passenger on curvy mountain roads, and let’s not even talk about aspects of being a step parent. My poor husband, and friends. I can be a lot.
It’s not that these things don’t affect me. They do. I had a migraine for two days and yesterday, I basically took the day off to recuperate. I even napped because I was so exhausted. I’m not a napper.
I guess there are certain things you know are simply out of your hands. I’m grateful to God for giving me the calm this week, and for watching out for all of us. I’m glad everyone is safe and sound.
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